It's been 10 yrs of Marriage

Don't things look so different than you thought they would? Doesn't life seem to sneak up and do weird things. My body is not what I remember, my kids are busier than I seem to keep up with, and my husband is harder than ever to catch these days. It might sound like I am complaining but that is not what this is. My life was a picture in my head that I set out to live. Maybe I am not as graceful as I planned. My house is not as clean as I thought. But my life is fuller and better than I ever thought it was!
It's not about pictures and fairy tails, it was never about the glass slippers and the beautiful gown. It was about the blood, the sweat and tears. Laying my fears at the feet of God and walking forward in blind hopeful faith! I wouldn't trade a second. I made big falls. I hurt myself and others along the way, but from those I have learned how to be a better me. I keep thinking that better me is more perfect, less flawed. Whole and completely without cracks. My lesson have come with scares, deep pains and stretch marks.
It's the hardest shift to change from who I thought I would be and who I am becoming but along with that pain comes freedom and peace. I know the path I am on is my path. It is the path God wants me on. I would love to say that I am who I was meant to be right now but I am still changing, still treading the road with lessons in front of me. I am heading toward that better person already changed but not fully.
I am so glad God has see fit to keep guiding me down this road. He keeps leading me to His idea of me. It has been 10 wonderful learning years. The laughs and joy, the tears and pain keep leading me closer to me :)
What a wonderful road it's been. Who know where it will take me. I am so blessed! I am so thankful! I wish the pains were all gone but I know they will come. When they come I won't be alone. God has covered me and surrounded me with so many wonderful people; Friends, Family, Strangers (friends I am starting to meet) and the little Angels that brighten my day with a smile or kind word and I don't think they knew how much they did for me. I am not alone on this unknow path. I am safe and protected and on one more bright adventure.